I've been MIA from the blogsphere and from life in general lately.
Crime happened to me. Even though I wasn't physically hurt, the psychological impact has been more than I cared to admit. Our "normal" has been disrupted, and my confidence has been shaken.
The entire incident has left me feeling a little despondent about life in general simply because I feel so helpless regarding the entire matter and have been constantly looking over my shoulder ever since.
I tried putting up a brave face and continued to go through the motions of everyday life. I thought I was doing a good job at it until my kids pointed it out. Clearly, it wasn't working.
One day out of the blue, my kids kissed me and told me to "try again", just like what I always tell them when they're faced with something difficult. It was a wake-up call for me.
I've been talking to my husband about it, and that has helped. In all of the conversations that we've had about this incident, one of the things that he said has resonated with me, "...don't let them steal your joy."
I thought about this for a long time. Obviously it is easier said than done.
It started with just thinking about this message everyday. From there, I've been consciously trying to find some simple joys in life and focus on it each day. This has helped most of the time to pull me out of this slump. I still have moments where I'm gripped by negative emotions, but I'm slowly bouncing back. I won't let them steal my joy.